I’m not saying I blame you I put it all on myself now. I’ve tried erasing you but the taste of you is still on my tongue.. I should have let things go on their own naturally. Guess I’m a casualty to a broken heart. it’s like I’m living in my casket. You never seemed to care at what I’ve done, all I’ve been feelin is numb. I’m sure you’re proud to feel you won. If I could change the past I probably would have ran. I always played the victim, the mind games. Don’t wanna hear I’m sorry. I felt like I lost my heart but I gained it from a far. Spare me the late night texts, you never cared to see what I’ve become. You may as well have been the one holding the gun. The world around us is collapsing, ask your self Where’s your faith at.. its like I’m hypnotized by the worlds fate, destined for disaster, disappointment. If was you baby I would have run too. Kind of hard to sympathize, can we just not pretend. We all know we’re scared, the way we feel may not be fair. Put life into perspective of what matters, you may need to do some things you’ve never done before. For the greater good, not for worse but for the better. You’re constantly traveling through my state of mind. Why do they like it when I cry, can’t live this lie. I have one to many things to say, so I’ll ask you one question at the end of the day. I’m falling in and out of sleep feeling hallow as can be. I’d be lying if I said I don’t resent you and you would be lying if you said you don’t resent me. I’ve been drowning in the mud and uncertainty. Sometimes I would rather be alone. I swear my whole generation doesn’t know how to listen, they don’t know a damn thing they just gain addiction and reckless decisions. I had so much doubt but I didn’t know my limits. I’m telling the truth I betrayed you. It didn’t feel good it left a hallow hole in my soul. So depressed can’t leave my house, it’s not like you checked in on me. It’s all my fault I can’t blame anyone but me. I swore I was gonna change, I’ve changed like the world around us, a drastic turn, however my change was for the better. The world around us is burning to the ground. Cause now that I’m getting sober it’s like the tug of war is over. I easy dying inside. I’m sorry for what I became, my self has finally re appeared. You told me I would cave and feel it later, I tried to numb it and wanted someone to hold me I was so lonely. The man who left my bed is leaving an impact on my future love. I don’t know why I do this every single time. To the ones who never left me and watched me go down the long road thank you for not losing hope on me. You helped my heart be set free. I have to say I’m sorry to you all and I’m sorry to myself. Less is more.

XO Maldo