Sometimes I feel as if I love too deeply. So much so I shatter my own soul. You see the way I can define love is simple, An intense feeling of deep affection. The spirit within brings out intense emotion. I was always told I have an old soul. Traditional at heart, once I give you mine, I give you my all. To love as hard as I do is both a blessing, yet a curse. Although not everyone feels as deeply as I do, I used to be so fragile, constantly allowing that character defect of mine of expecting the same in return break me down, so many times that the pieces just wouldn’t be put back evenly. At the end of the day, where I am in life I have learned I need to be the one who loves my self. Its no ones job but my own to do so. God grants me unconditional strength, the sight to see the beauty in the world, to love my self so I’m not broken. Because he has picked me up, and made me whole again.

You see, I think only some people understand what Love even is. How powerful Love can be, and the incredible strength you get from loving yourself and putting faith into our wonderful God. Youre missing out if you’ve never felt real love, I can say, before you can gain thee ability to love others, you MUST love your self first. That is really when the true journey begins in your life to finding Love. When I feel un loved I know I have a God who created me, who loves me, and put me and my big heart here for a bigger purpose then my mind will ever fathom. Through heartache and heart break. Don’t be afraid to express love. Its one of the most beautiful gifts were blessed with on this earth. I am growing into a stronger woman everyday. I wont let this harsh world dull my spirit anymore, for it has bottled me up for far to long. No one ever said it would be easy, just stay true to yourself and stay patient, these are the things I say to myself.

Some people don’t know this about me but one of my favorite things to do alone is drive to a quiet spot in the night and be alone with my thoughts. I often find myself hiding alone in my car. Theres something about being at a point where you can see the stars and the city lights at the same time that just brings me such an overwhelming feeling of peace and solace. I was once lost, but now I am found. I was broken to the ground, but now I paint my cracks from the broken pieces glued back together Gold, to show my scars of why I still love as deep as I do today. Tell someone you love them today, because you never know when one day will be your last..

For this evening I am over and out.

XOXO Maldo