(Inspired Spark to write, by some of My Lyrical Favorites, Enjoy My words.)

You got so close to me, so close, I let you in and all of me poured out like a fountain. I know it makes you nervous, but I promise you its worth it… Don’t Hide, I hope you stay.. Look out your window you see that beauty as you sit in silence? You dont have to keep quiet. I want to show you everything I desire. You may not love like you promised, but your love is pure gold to me.

So who are you? One day you leave me stupid but the next day you leave me breathless. You want me or you don’t. You can read me which causes trouble when you make me so weak. But I think I have my mind made up this time. Somewhere in between the streets in the night you found me all alone, did you come to take me home? I’m holding on to something I don’t quite know of. ”I’m always watching over you” he says.. Im holding on for no one like you.

You see, Ive got no excuses for my goodbyes so just wake me when the shakes are gone. I don’t know why I do this all the time, I do this when I am lonely. Mama I’m so sorry I’m not sober anymore… We’ve been down this road before. Sorry for the future love and for the man who left my bed.. To those I love, I want to be your role model, Your hero. But I am only human. Someone Just hold me, I am only lonely. Help, its as if I have hurt myself again Like ive lost my way home. It wasn’t my intention I’m sorry to myself.. Help, before I have done it again… I Just don’t wanna be alone.

The worst part is there is no one else to blame but me. I am small and needy, But strong and un breakable. This world wont break me for I have been broken down before. I come up the mountain to the crisp air and breath in as deep as I can the purest of the oxygen. But then I feel as if I cannot breath anymore, when I gasp for air please don’t call for help. Let me rest with the stars. For they’re so beautiful, I sit and watch the night sky with the air on my skin, closer then your hands have been to me. I want to feel your touch like I feel the wind. Its what I long for.

All ive found is heartbreak and misery. All these lonely nights, I lay next to myself and the blank space of my love life. Love that isn’t here, longing for someone to share it with. I can wish them the best the world could give if only I could be the world they get. They say Learn to love yourself first. Inspire to not let go, To not Give up. Somethings are easier said then done. I’m to much to handle, be careful you just may not be able to put out the candle. For when I burn, I burn bright and hot. Careful to not get burned. I am all to familiar with that pain. Wait a minute, let me finish, even if you don’t care. I know I over did it with my heart out on the table. Do you even feel anything? Anything at all? Youre like a melody MIA. When you see the stars flicker in my eyes just tell me I’m gonna be okay. If I die in your arms its where I am supposed to be. You say you cant stay, you cant give a reason. So how did we get here? Must be better if we do this on our own before I am someone you leave behind. I have lost to much. My Hearts Turned Black, will someone revive me? Faith and Fate is what comes, so how do we get here? Just don’t break my heart or ill break yours before you break mine.

To Be Continued…

XOXO Maldo