The smell of liquor on your breath

Still brings back memories of death

My life may be a mess

Something I have failed to confess

But I must come forward with this fear of abandonees

The lies sharp as a double edged sword you spew on your tongue

Lead me to strike you when the night was still young

Now I sit here full of regret

But I know the thought of this you will never forget

It makes it to where the lies you told

Become old

Somehow like an empty mold

I try not to hold but the feelings just grow so bold

When I just want to love you and grow old

Oh why cant you be faithful to me

Something you promised you would be

Yet you attack me when lose control of my emotions

Something not even the strongest potions can fix

So many feelings in the mix

I just sit here and reminisce

You holding my hand with your truth and clean ways

Oh how I miss those days

So full of shame I wont dare say a name

Or look in the mirror where I only see horror

But I know my hearts pure

But you’re still not even sure

I made you bleed your own blood

But my hearts become that of mud

The disgust I feel inside I must discuss

But you only take it as a fuss

You throw fits when you don’t get you way

But make it seem like I’m the one that needs to sway

You run and I still beg you to stay

Your heart has just been left so enraged

I feel so disengaged

I would do anything to let go of the rage

I think its time to turn the next page

But I need your hand in mine as we take a bow on this stage

For when we walk back out together

We promised it wouldn’t matter the weather

That’s something we promised

That’s forever

I love you even beyond this letter

I know with time everyday will get better

As long as were together.