Im sorry lover for I have been so over bearing. Im sorry I haven’t learned from my past mistakes. I try I promise you, I don’t lean to be this way. I don’t mean to be the center of it all. I care about you so much, I hope one day you can find it in your heart to forgive me, forgive me for the times you felt alone, when I was sick and it was all about me. forgive me for the times you didn’t get the space you needed. You see im just a fragile girl with abandonment issues. Everyone walks out of my life everytime the going gets to rough, so you see my darling I have grasped onto you for dear life because im afraid you will too and I don’t ever want to let you go. im so sorry for not taking your time you give me into consideration I adore you with all of me. if you cant handle me now I know we simply weren’t meant to be, but I pray to god that im wrong. I pray that gods plan for us is much bigger, that these fight or flight mometns will bring us closer together in the end. You see I carry a lot of darkness alongside a lot of light. when youre with me its like nothing else mtters its just you and I. Baby I wont chase you for I know my worth all to well, I wont beg you to stay and not walk out that door as many others have. No-One ever said relationships were easy. I can admit my faults. But I wont allow myself to be abandoned anymore. For the emotional trauma is far to strong. I know my worth. Youre worth more then feeling this way as well. You should never feel as if you cant breath with me. I want to be your safe place to run when youre overwhelmed. I feel in my heart we can withstand the storms of time, but if you try to close the door everytime, I don’t know what else to do. Just know I’m all in and I’m here for you if you let me. Please don’t be so heartless. I can only take so much heartache. You’re all over my mind I can’t find another muse, I pretend I’m fine but I don’t know how. I hate being so honest I feel like you have my heart but you don’t even want it. I’m sorry for suffocating you.

Xoxo Maldo