Broken glass always seems to cut the skin. Cut the tongue. 7 years of bad luck is really kicking in right now. Youre scared to come to me, we don’t have to talk about it its only love, I guess we learn to live with or without it. I don’t think you can handle the mess inside my mind, if you only knew. I do get you, you’ll never get me. closing doors, ticking time. You have secrets and I have mine. One foot in front of the other until I fall on my knees. You have songs and I have love.. You know its all in my mind, building brick walls as my heart pours out blood red as wine like a waterfall. They say strength will come back honey, keep your head high. Some peoples minds work funny, I guess ill just let it be, let it go, stop keeping track. But, know ive got your back if you’ve got mine. Release the smoke from your lungs, what’s done has been done. Can someone fill in all my cracks.. They all leave and never come back. Just know when my words cut like a knife they’re coming from a place of pain inside from my life. I don’t want to be alone. Sometimes I may want to run away where the world cant find me, but I still want you to see me. Get me high and don’t leave me on read, show me the deepest moments you dread.

We fell from a shooting star, you promised me the misery is just a phase. It isn’t true. I have lost you. Struggling to make a mends, leaning on the hour glass as the world feels like its coming to an end. I wish I could press pause, I’m in the same situation, things will get easier once you make it, but it seems impossible. Watching history repeat its self, grasping onto a dead rose. Youre all that I know. Resting you into a book to preserve your heart watching the colors of the petals grow older and fade. I look at what ive made, ive fallen. Losing my self knowing what its like to lose someone a little like you, maybe I needed love, maybe I needed peace, then I found someone a little like me. Why am I blue, here without you. I lied to keep you from breaking my heart, I get so twisted up stuck in a rut I wish I could let it go. Sometimes I feel like life is beyond my control. But what is it that I cant see? Feeling worthless with no purpose rises to the surface. Wont these feelings wash away. I don’t want to feel lonely or sad, don’t wait to call me. This will pass, its just a season for no reason. The leaves will fall as they do in autumn, and new beautiful ones will appear in spring. That’s how my mind feels and it gets tangled like a line on a fishing pole. Let go but don’t keep me far. If I was to go would you follow? I guess i really did it this time, told you everything i did last night got drunk forgot to bite my tongue as usual. how could I beg you to love me at all. You broke my heart I thought I was over, these demons never quit Don’t you know me by now? I spew words I can never take back. how can I blame any one I wouldn’t love me at all. Called me out on every one I lost, I’m the one, the reason I’m punching walls again. How could I blame you, I had an already broken heart.

My life isn’t the same, until the days ache in our bones are we old enough to know its time were on our own. Ive never felt to be enough. Something needed to change but now it isn’t the same. I’m changing, but I lost it all. I can tell when its a hard day, but I always make it through, the people who all seem so happy are not laughing on the inside. I wont be alone now I cant be, when i look and theres no one around a consequence of my own actions. Everything keeps on floating, everyone keeps on going. Going back to the habits I had before all this time. I think I can fix it, i can mend it, not drown like planned. Someone make me whole again like I’m meant to be. Maybe this letter is to me. i hope the title wave falls short. To be honest you can have the truth. Ill give what’s left of me back to you. Times gone but never forgotten, pocket in my heart for something new.

XOXO Maldo